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\u201cI wanna be positive so bad, but every time I try to move forward, my heart still expects pain first.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cThe more I say \u2018I\u2019m fine,\u2019 the more obvious it becomes that I\u2019m really not.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cI wanted to be a strong girl so badly\u2026 but deep down, I\u2019m still terrified of not being loved.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cI got so good at smiling through everything that nobody notices when I\u2019m actually falling apart.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cI act like nothing bothers me, but truthfully\u2026 everything hits me harder than I let people see.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cI\u2019m not a negative person. I\u2019ve just been disappointed enough to stop expecting things to last.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cI try to stay hopeful, but my mind automatically prepares for the worst.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cSome girls look confident because hiding their fear became second nature.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cI keep pretending I\u2019m strong because I honestly don\u2019t know who I\u2019d be without that mask.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cI want love more than anything, but the second it starts feeling real, I pull away.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cPeople only know the version of me that smiles online. They never see the girl fighting herself at 2AM.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cI\u2019m becoming the woman I needed when I was younger\u2026 while still healing the little girl inside me.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Until my heart feels light again.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u571f\u5c4b\u68a8\u6c99<\/p>\n\n\n\n
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